hemlock

hi there! here are some self-fragments: i am vegan. i am trans*. i am an anarcha-feminist. i don't want chaos; i want the beauty and humanity that comes with starting over and creating something sustainable this time. i believe in people and our potential for extraordinary things. "punk rock music saved my life; i can sing it honestly." i go to a tiny liberal arts school in new england. i want to be a mathematician. i used to be anorexic and very self-destructive in general. i found out there was hope. rimbaud has been my favorite poet since i was twelve. i always look people in the eyes. i am really shy. i think i am kind cool a little bit sometimes?? that may just be because i have all the same interests as myself.

ramshackle glory; crass; mischief brew; the mountain goats; evan greer; wingnut dishwashers union; bomb the music industry!; the world/inferno friendship society; defiance, ohio; blackbird raum; gogol bordello

so you don't have you read a bunch more (and also because i am lazy), in general i like: folk/gypsy/circus/pirate/peace/crust/cabaret punk, most things involving washboards, banjos, tinny horns, accordions, and/or lots of yelling, and old folk songs about the government.

everything kurt vonnegut, emma goldman, arthur rimbaud, and carl sagan ever wrote. also:

black hole - charles burns; the sandman series - neil gaiman; persepolis - marjane satrapi; the tao of pooh & the te of piglet - benjamin hoff; the elegant universe - brian greene; le petit prince - antoine de saint-exupéry; the brothers karamazov & crime and punishment & notes from the underground & the idiot - fyodor dostoevsky; a portrait of the artist as a young man & ulysses - james joyce; lolita & pale fire - vladimir nabokov; siddhartha - hermann hesse

blah blah, words!

american beauty; amélie; the science of sleep; 2001: a space odyssey; harold & maude; i'm not there; eraserhead; blue velvet; donnie darko; eternal sunshine of the spotless mind; earthlings

a: â’¶, abandoned houses, absurdism, adventuring, animal liberation, anti-comedy, anti-heros, autumn

b: bikes, bildungsromans, body modification, bony fingers, books, bookstores, broken noses, bruises

c: cats, cherry blossom trees, cider, civil disobedience, clavicles, clouds, coloring books, combat boots, cult followings

d: dainty foods, dandelions, didgeridoos

e: ENTHUSIASM, eugene hütz's mustache, euler's identity, eyes

f: fairytales, farmer's markets, feminism, fireworks, flannel, folklore, four square

g: gender studies, getting mail, glasses, gonzo, graphic novels

h: halloween, hands, harvest moons, hopscotch

i: istigkeit

j: jewfros

k: kites, kittens

l: list-making, literary tattoos, lucid dreams

m: macabre, maxwell's equations, memoirs, mixtapes, moonlight

n: nebulae, nighttime, nostalgia

o: orchards

p: patches, plums, pumpkin-carving, PUNX

q: quaint things, quantum mechanics

r: rain on tin roofs, rivers, rocking horses

s: sound a record player makes after the music stops playing (the), space-time, spiderwebs, streetlamps

t: taoism, thrift stores, treehouses, typewriters

u: uppin' da punx

v: veganism

w: windowseats, writing letters

x: xkcd

y: you probably!

z: zines

• when you realize you are exactly where you need to be
• when plans come together
• when you finish a book
• when you go outside in the winter and you can smell how cold and clean it is
• when you can see rain falling somewhere else
• when you do something purely by muscle memory
• when it's nice and autumn-y out and you're walking somewhere and you're the only thing in the whole world
• when you realize you aren't ashamed of yourself anymore
• when everyone at a show stops being separate entities and every insecurity just disappears and you're all screaming the lyrics and dancing or moshing or whatever you're doing and you're part of something and the fact that it's just a bunch of sweaty, smelly kids in a basement or run-down venue can't even touch you then and neither can anything else because you're there and in motion and that's enough (see first entry)

i'm not very picky but here are some things i especially like: - ZINES! - patches - tea - trinkets - old paper (pages from books, maps, whatever) - pretty much anything handmade - stationary - weird things - things with stories behind them (the actual story would be a bonus!) - stickers - anything cat-related

i'm vegan, so if you're sending food i'd really appreciate it if it's animal/animal product-free. if that's not possible though i can always share it with non-vegan friends! in addition to that, i don't wear/use leather, wool, fur, etc. my school has this weird thing where we're not allowed to have candles/incense or we'll get fined, so none of that please