Itchy

Update Sep 6, Now I will take a break from swap-bot for a while, since I am so into painting and create all kinds of art,it´s for a vernissage, and I just love making those paintings. But I feel that I can´t be that creative on swap-bot anymore. Will fix my last swaps now.

Hi there, I am a 32-y-o girl from Sweden. My name is Emily and I got a passion for creating. I am an almost happy girl. Just have some problems with my anxiety.

I have something that I call “nojjs”. A nojj is a fear, a little thing that are growing in my mind. I fear everything. Like when I am nojji, I am in the nojje-world, and my unconscious give me hints about what I had missed when I wasn´t nojji. Yeah, I Have my un-nojje days, I love those days, when everything is just so easy. I feel easy, I feel good, I can write letters, I can create. But when I am nojji I can´t do anything, better lay in my bed, and don´t see anything, because the more I see when I am nojji, the more I nojj about. Yeah, those fears again, But as I said, I can do so much when I am un-nojji. I almost get euphoria, just can solve most things, that´s why I keep doing this, my biggest hobby. Sometimes I feel like I want to quit with swapbot, but I just can´t stop.

But when I am un-nojji, the first day is always the best one. Then I am un-nojji for three days, and then I get nojjs, and it use to be between 6 and 12 hours. I don´t know why I have to have this, I wish I could just heal from this, be free from them. ‘

But sometimes I feel like it´s worth it, to have nojjs in 12 hours and then 3 good days! I just feel so balanced and calm sometimes, then it is the right time to fix stuff.

I love to make ppl happy, just to know that someone actually appreciate what I have done. And I love when I get mail, if my mailbox is happy, I am happy.

I live In the middle of Skåne, (skåne is a region in southern Sweden). I live in a group-home, for ppl that have some sort of diagnosis, I have a-typical autism, and I sometimes got a hard time taking in too much information. But other then that I can do so much by myself. Like I cook my food myself, cleaning and washing my clothes.

I love my job, I job at a second hand, I use to fix with the hangers, that´s one of my tasks, and doing the womens clothes.

I just want the nojjs to go away, I have a little dream, get rid of the nojjs first, then move to Malmö (my birthtown) maybe a grouphome in the beginning, later on have my own apartment with some support. And to have a little cat! :) And, Thanks to my bestie who showed me this site. Thanks and hugs to her!

I love to do ATC:s, I have a kind of dark sense of art. I love to do ballerinas, angels or creepy ppl, like the ballerina is broken, she is sewed all over her face and body, but she still dance!

I am pretty new to mail-art, sometimes I find myself sticker-slapping my envies, but I try to do it as creative as I can just do.

I have tried to do zentangles, not perfect but I love to try new art, new ways of doing ATC:S. Also I have started to do different medium on ATC:s, like stamping, tried with watercolors and using my jelli-pens and doing not so dark art.

A: Angels, ATC, Alice in Wonderland

B: Butterflies, Ballerinas, Bookmarks

C: Cats, Coca-cola-things, Cozy evening home with hot chocolate and cozy socks, cookies, Clips

D: Dandelions, Dancing when I feel happy,

E: Ephemera, Extras,

F: Fairies, Friends for ever,

G: Galaxy,

H: Hot chocolate, Horror-themed, Happy mail, Hello kiitty

I: Inchies

J: Jewellery, Just sitting and make an ATC or other art, Jelly candy

K: Kawaii,

L: Letters, letter-paper

M: Mood for making stuff,

N: Notepads, Norwegian forest cats

O: Orchids, Old pin-up commercials

P: Postcards, Pin-ups, Purple,

Q: ? :D

R: Random things, Rainbow loom bracelets, Red

S: Stickers, Snail-mail, Scary, Steam-punk, second hand, Space, Stationary

T:, Twinchies

U: UFO:s

V: VIdeo-games, VIntage

W: Washi-tape

X: ? :D

Y: Yarn (embroidery)

Z: Zentangles

A little wishlist (if you wanna send me)

Letter-paper

Those stickers where it says: HappyMail, This is not a bill and such.

Double cards

I love coffee and hot chocolate, but not fond of tea. I just don´t drink it. I don´t have a particular fav dish, but I love sushi! I love candy, most chocolate and jelly-candy, and everything coca cola.

My all time favorites

Forrest Gump

Fried green tomatoes

Lion king

Inside out

Flight plan

Hanniball

Saw

Scream

Let the right one in

Alice in wonderland

The bridge to Therabithia

Narnia

Harry Potter And a lot more..

It´s really mixed up, like everything between heaven and earth, film music, videogame music, rock, pop rap, synth and a lot more!

My all time fave videogame is Silent hill, I just love the melancholy feeling about it. It´s a horror game serie from Japan. Really, really scary, but I love it! :) Also adore the music from it! Other then that I like Crash Bamdicoot.

On the summer, I have my fan, sitting by my computer and feeling the easy breeze from the fan, blowing in my hair.

Like, I am obsessed with cloths and design-stuff. I always buy a new cloth and I just love to change my cloths once in a while. That makes me a little happy

To talk to a guy in my group-home. He has a hard time saying my name so he calls me Ellen ( He also has a problem with havig a conversation). He say, I am so good today, is Ellen feeling good today? And I answer, yes Ellen feels great today :)

On the winter, I like to wear my cozy socks and doing some hot chocolate

To do my apartment “tipp-topp”, when I am cleaning it and making it super-clean.

I am extremely easy to please, the only things I don´t want is licorice and tea!

I love recycling, just love to go to libraries and pick those nice free magazines and brochures. And when I am in a waiting room, like on hospital I always find something that contains a nice picture in it, :)

I am an indoor person, always something to do, like cleaning and swapping. I am just not an active person.

I always try to send my partners some profile-based extras. I always send stuff in time but if you haven´t got anything from me, please let me know and I am happy to resend.

That was all, hope you feel good ppl! :) take care, Emily